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"In pain you can see a glimse of happiness. Then this glimpse will be the only thing you can see, will surround you, and overwhelm you."

I'm having to believe this becaus ethough all the sadness that has happned to me lately.

I have an amazing sweet boyfriend now who honesly cares about and I can talk to on the phone, whcih if you have talked to me on the phone, doesn't happen, EVER.

Strangly enough he has the same first name as my ex who didn't.
We had to put another one of my dogs down
My grandpa died last night.

If you need me get ahold of me though my myspace
http://www.myspace.com/emeraldfate
In case anyone hasn't noticed I stopped working on my Lj. I feel in love with myspace becasue my actually real life friends are there and yeah...

SO

If you have a myspace you can get a hold of me over there. i promise to add you as a friend so yeah...Good stuff.

Oh and I'm emeraldfate there so wwww.myspace.com/emeraldfate

And that's all folks.
Break-ups suck.

Esp. when it's your gut telling you something and not your heart and your heart feels like it's been stabbed a million times becasue your gut told you something and you do it.

Because that is how I feel right now.

But alas life moves on...
Hey everyone! I made a myspace account last night. I'm emeraldfate over there. As everyone knows my baby ( my poodle love) died last Friday and I honestly haven't felt like being home at all. We have a new dog coming but the soonest we will get her is Wendesday.

School is yuck right now. Micro and Calculus are both beasts right now. My online classes are rocking my GPA right now though so hopefully I won't have to start college summer term like they are saying Oh and Milner is giving us a mandatory stude period in Econ. Yeah right....

I have no idea what to do right now. Cody is in London (who will be offically my exboyfriend when he gets home) because I have been doing a lot of thinking. I don't have to work tonight which is like amazing. I have to close tommorow though. Hopefully George will be working.
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4
to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were
broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy -age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,"
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody . You don't see anyone else
kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old
clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an imagination)
Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age

Oct. 25th, 2005

Man I am so upset.

We are getting one of the hurricane dogs since Buddy died. Her name is Katrina (get it?) and she tested heart worm postive so she has been undergoing treatment. The lady we are adopting her from said we would be getting her this Friday but she called tonight saying we couldn't have her until the middle of next week.

The annoying part is my Chysalis weekend is next weekend so I'll be there from thursday night on. At most i'm going to be spending three hours with the dog that is supposidly "my dog" until Sunday. The next a whole new week of hell aka school is back so the only time I will be seeing her is at night. I was thinking about going out fo the bowling team but they have practice every day next week and that would mean I would spend even less time with her.

Man is the devil screwing with my dogs because of this weekend.
My baby is gone.

Dad took him to the vet around 4 and the rest is history. I loved that dog so much more than anyone could understand.

I have been crying almost the whole day. Cody came over with doughnuts and I just sat with him and cried. His flight is tommorow.

I got home and Buddy's moo-cow was on the floor. I broke down big time...